I’m 18, 5″7 and 133 pounds. I am extremely self conscious about my body and hate almost every aspect, and therefore have never let anyone into my life before, until I met my boyfriend who I adore. We’re in a long distance relationship, and although I have sent him nudes when he asks, they’re from deceiving angles to make my waist look smaller and my butt look bigger and to hide my ugly labia. I used to be fatter, and losing weight has left me with a saggy stomach. I still have fat there, but some of it is loose skin too and when I’m on all fours it hangs down and looks awful. My boobs are small at only a 34B, I feel I look manly with my broad back and square butt. My ugly labia makes me cry, and I often have stressful dreams about cutting it off. I know my boyfriend’s preferences, petite, slim, large breasts, firm round ass. I just feel like I can’t be good enough for him.
First off, from where I’m sitting, you look like a healthy, normal woman. The media fosters unrealistic and unattainable images of women, resulting in a skewed perception of beauty.
This blog focuses on body issues relating to the labia, and you will see that there is a huge variety of labia types out there, including variations in size, texture and coloration, all of which are completely normal.
With regard to your dreams and thoughts regarding self-harm, it may be a good idea for you to speak to a counselor, psychologist or other qualified professional who can act as a sounding board and help you to work through these difficult issues.
If it’s any comfort, I can tell you that you are not alone in experiencing these issues, as millions of women go through similar issues which is one of the reasons I started this blog.
If you would like to talk in private, please send me an e-mail at firstname.lastname@example.org